What is an Addiction?
Man is a spiritual creature having a confusing human experience.
He often tries to fulfill his spiritual requirements with artificial stimulants, thus finding himself even more empty.
If you have opened this window, chances are you have a love one whose addiction is holding everyone hostage.
Therefore, the addict is going to require that you understand their addiction, because addicts are often
convinced that the world has the problem, not them.
If that loved one can't survive a month or even as much as a day without engaging in some form of either un-
natural, unlawful, unhealthy, unethical, immoral, risky, or self- destructive behavior, chances are they have an
un-conscious death wish.
If you are the one who suspects that you may have a problem with an addiction and you need further proof, ask
yourself the following questions; how has your spiritual, physical and mental health been lately? Have the police
or the FBI, CIA or Home Land Security had to help you manage your life lately?
Has your boss, your spouse, or maybe your kid or other family member said that your addiction has become a
problem for them, but you just can’t understand why?
Is guilt, frustration and shame eating a hole in your soul, and you feel in your heart that your addiction has
progressively began to take control over you, rather than you controlling it? Or have you been allowed to justify
it because the world is going to hell anyway, so what is the use in trying?
We have some good news for you; The world is going to hell, but you don't have to go with it. If you are
beginning to use more artificial stimulation like alcohol or other drugs to allow yourself to engage in a behavior
like gaming, purn-ography, materialism, or a same sex relationship, because its beginning to eat a hole in your
soul, you must now realize that you are receiving God's greatest gift, conviction.
We have learned how to no longer be a slave to its progressive pain and sickness, and so can you or your
loved one. The world is filled with pain and sorrow, but we have learned to deal with life on God's, rather than on
our own terms without numbing ourselves with artificial stimulations, and so can you.
We have learned how to function, live and socialize in a world gone rouge, how to enjoy life without artificial
stimulation, and we can help you to understand life and its implications.
However, if you are not ready for a reality check, then this is not the website for you. But if you are like the
countless people that we talk to who are sick and tired of being sick and tired of this world, you are not alone. If
you feel that you need some real answers, then read on, because we, too, have seen the gates of hell, and we
have all returned with a powerful message of hope for you.
You must understand that there is a force in this universe that wishes your undivided attention. It will lie to you
and tell you that you do not deserve to live in peace. It will tell you since you hurt, it's okay to hurt others. It will
teach you how to justify engaging in risky behavior, then it has the audacity to laugh at you for falling for its
tricks. It is allowed to test you until you either pass, or fail.
Many of us tend to internalize the worlds problems. We try to carry its weight on our shoulders and as the world
continues to grow ever more cold, callous and calculating just to survive itself, it begins to pull us down more
and more each day.
If we wish to recover from an addiction, first we must learn to deal with the painful anger at the injustice we
witness each day. The first task is we must learn to except the things that we can not change, change the things
that we can, but to realize there are some things in this world that are just as they are supposed to be at this
point in human development.
There is a very painful process going on around us that is a necessary evil, and the sooner we come to terms
with this reality, the better off the world, for us, will be.
We all have experienced events in our lives that we have allowed to define who we believe we are. These
events often lead us to believe that we were not good enough or have failed ourselves or, worse yet, others.
Again we have lied to ourselves, and the sad part of all of this, we believe these lies. We now hope to expose
these discrepancies by painting these self-destructive ideas with bright colored paint to allow you to detect,
arrest, and replace these ideals with hopeful thoughts and healthy ideas.
However, no matter how much our tester begs, pouts, cries or pleads with its hostage, the hostage must learn
not to listen to its allure. Only after one truly becomes willing, will man's Creator set the hostage on a difficult
journey towards dis-believing the lies presented by the Tester.
However, his complacency continuously fights back to retake its control. Therefore, no matter how much one
thinks one knows, anger, resentments, cravings, obsessions and adverse addictions know the heart of all men,
better than men know themselves.
We are all prone to risky behavior(s). Religion often has no say here, and for some of us there is not a gun big
enough to get us to realize that we are being tested, simply because the payoff to numb ourselves overrides the
cost of feeling our pain. Therefore, all we can do here is to help you weigh up the costs vs the gains.
We hope that our readers will understand that all forms of adverse addictions do have their roots in the same
ground, and that all adverse addictions are acts of self-survival or rebellion towards a flawed society. It has
been our observation that all addictions have their roots in trauma. Trauma meaning some negative influence
that we felt powerless to control. Therefore, when we fail to deal with trauma's feelings of loss, we seek a way to
numb the pain.
We often begin our journey into the world of artificial stimulation out of curiosity or peer pressure. For many of
us it becomes our out, or relaxation technique. Some appear to have the ability to maintain reasonable use,
whiles others, quite obviously, can not. For many of us addictions' progression takes us places we swore we
would never go.
For some, it appears that in life there are conditions that cause some of us to become curious. Just mark a door
with a "Danger" sign and see how fast this type of individual wants to open the door to see for themselves. Soon
the allure takes these captive and addiction slowly takes hold.
No matter how we get there, for most of us the results are always the same, shame, guilt, frustration, jails,
institutions or death.
We must now learn to allow the world to do what it is going to do. Families are crumpling, kids are running
rouge, it's a sign of the times. Therefore, we must learn to deal with the adverse feelings and emotions that we
feel. We must learn to cry and express our pain. It is healthy. We must tell ourselves that it is okay to feel the
pain, it is a process that we call repairative therapy. Pain is God's healing tool that has become our path back
to the Garden of our Eden.
Because if we do not learn to express our feelings, we will continue using artificial stimulation to numb ourselves
and soon we become prisoners, whores of our own addictive brain chemistry. Now in order to maintain the same
level of comfort, the more heinous the addiction must become. (An excellent e-book written by Dr Cliff Kuhn to help
overcome trauma HERE)
Therefore, all addictions are progressive. These chemicals then allow for a faults sense of security through
denial and its insanity. Therefore, as traumatized, angry and often sorrowful peoples, these brain chemicals
often become our only means of escaping ourselves and the harms that we maintain in this, a confusing, self-
destructive and to often, unjust world.
You are not going to realize justice in this world. You must now learn to face this fact. Man is incapable of self-
government. Self-government was destined to fail because self- government has always lead us to self-
destruction. The mentality of denial and co-dependency is a deception that is leading our world towards
destruction. It is insanity at its best!
When most of us think of addiction, they think only of alcohol and other drugs. Self-will is an addiction. Pride is
an addiction. Self enlightenment is an addiction, just as can be organized religion. For some of us anger and
rage has become our addiction just as much as greed's materialism or unlawful out of wedlock sexual
gratification. These are all expressions of rebellion or hopelessness, and both are signs of lack of trust in our
Creator.
They are all by-products of fear and self-survival, a sure sign of the criminal behavior we chose to engage in the
Garden of our Eden. All are forms of adultery that contaminates our spiritual union with our Creator. Is all
considered sorcery, its that which places its faith in the works of its flesh. Therefore, from now on whenever you
see chemical addiction words used, always put your particular type of addiction in the place of.
There is a major spiritual component for most all of us in recovery. Here is where beliefs vary greatly because
every ones understanding of a God or Deity varies. Just so you understand where we are coming from, I must
share some basics of my understanding. After studying the Hebrew scriptures for the last twenty years I came to
the conclusion that there is a hell.
However, contrary to the religious aspirations of man who, to often, mis-use its purpose to control the hearts
and minds, hell was not designed for us. The premise for this statement is self-will. We asked for it, and God
granted it. Why? Simply because He wishes for us to love and respect Him by choice rather than being forced to
do so. Our relationship with our Creator should reflect the same foundation as marriage.
Hell then became our choice that we make, a conscious choice to separate ourselves from the love of our
Creator. Hell is a realm set aside that will be void of God's great love for His children.
Therefore, with this choice, we then allowed our Creator to allow darkness into our world. This darkness is our
alternative to a committed marital relationship with our Creator. The Scriptures tell us that these dark forces
must ask their Creator for permission before they are allowed their negative influence on us. Therefore, we
have been granted the gift of choice. Whereas, these dark forces have none. But rather, simply do what they
are instructed.
Therefore, learning not to believe their deceptions has become man kinds greatest challenge. Now many of you
do not believe there is such a spirit. Again, this is your prerogative. However, I know these testers are here
because the Scriptures say they are and because I can feel their presents.
Whoever or whatever you choose to call God is entirely up to you. However, my research discovered God's
name can not be properly pronounced at this point in human development. Therefore, I call Him pure creation
consciousness, God, The Great I Am and Father.
Regarding His Word, His true Vicar, His manifestation on earth, known as The Christ. My research claims His
true name is Yahshua ha' Mashiach, rather than Jesus. The name Jesus is a created manifestation of the
corporate CHURCH OF ROME. See my research on my What is God's Name (HERE) page.
If you have difficulty with this understanding, please place your own name or understanding in the place of mine.
Right now lets just concern ourselves with recovery and not get hung up on matters of religion, but stay with
faith in an ultimate authority. Fair enough?
Now I realize that many of you grew up in the church. I did not, therefore, I am not one who is going to spend a
lot of time preaching to the choir here, as many of you may know the Scriptures better than I do, however, I do
wish to share just one Scripture that I hope you will take another look at.
Being that the apostle Paul, as well as others, had a near death experience, I feel his words are extra insightful
for us, even today. In the book of Romans, chapter 12 he made a claim that I feel is extra worthy of our attention;
"And so, dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God. Let them be a living and holy
sacrifice - the kind He will accept. When you think of what He has done for you (nailed Himself to a tree to allow
us safe passage) is this too much to ask? Therefore, don't copy the behaviors and customs of this world, but let
God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think."
Its easy to get caught up in the world today, the glitz and glamor is all so enticing. However, it always leads us
back to that empty and lonely place. The world and its materialistic media is so loud that it rings in out ears
causing most of our youth to fall pray to its allure. Some people of great faith even struggle everyday. Here is a
great example;
While counseling other addicts and alcoholics in one of our centers, one question that rather stumped me in the
beginning of my work in this field was when a young mother asked me, "Why can't I drink like everyone else?" I
was not quite sure how to answer her question.
Later that evening as I was greeting our clients returning from their nightly 12 step meeting, this young mother
looked me in the eye and said, "Now I understand why I can't drink like everyone else, I'm an alcoholic.
The nose on your face! Yes this wonderful sister, daughter, mother of two and wife to the nicest young man you
would ever wish to meet, has a serious problem with alcohol. If she has it, she drinks it.
During her recovery she was allowed to feel her pain, she confronted her fears, she then gave her mother's
killer amnesty and never touched another drop of booze. She no longer had the need for booze! I still get a
tear of joy in my eye every time I think of her story of the great loss she suffered as a child.
We must understand that we are not extensions of our addictions, but rather, our addictions are an extension of
what we have allowed ourselves to become in the faults reality where our absolute has been hidden by our
preconceived realities that cause us to lie to ourselves.
Therefore, it is now time to change that confused mind-set that believes its own lies. Now the only thing you
must do, besides hang on for the ride of your life, is to become honest in all of your affairs with yourself and
others.
I are not referring to cash register honesty here, but rather allow yourself to drop your guard long enough to
allow the honestly of others to help you to honestly evaluate you, because you can not safely evaluate yourself.
Why you ask? Because, just in case you hadn’t realized it before, you are rather bias in regards to yourself!
Yes, the process is going to make you uncomfortable in the beginning. You may even cry and pout! However,
think about how your adverse addiction has caused you or others grave harms. Now think about the loss of your
credibility with those in whom you love and who love you.
You are not your out-of-control-hobby, your out-of-control-hobby is apart of this world, and where your being is
a going there is not room for your baggage. Therefore, if you wish for an easy flight, lose the baggage here and
now!
However, after beginning to slowly shed those lies of excess baggage, you must give your flight crew enough
time to regain their trust in you. Do not expect them to trust you over night. It is not going to happen! It took all of
us years to lose their trust, and now it’s going to take much time to regain it. You will always have their love, but
trust must be earned. There are now only two days of the week in which you must never be concerned about
again, yesterday and tomorrow!
Here are some more thoughts for you before we move on; “It is foolish to regret the past, for it cannot be
changed.” It’s possible that the greatest thought along these lines comes from a fellow named Omar Khayyam’s
Rubaiyat. Ya ever hear of him? Me nether! So I looked him up. He was born in Persia (Iraq) 5-31-1048 and
became a poet, philosopher, astronomer and a mathematician before his death on 12-4-1131.
Ol’ Omar wrote; “The moving finger writes and having writ moves on, now with all your piety or wit you can't lure
it back to cancel half a line, nor will all your tears wash out a single word of it.” Do you think Omar must have
read the story about God's hand writing on the wall?
Here is another one from an unknown writer; “Yesterday lies with the centuries and there is nothing that we can
do about it. Yesterday with its failures and mistakes, tragedies, disappointments and unhappiness has gone
forever and is in the hands of the Mighty Love. It was our day but it is no longer ours; it now belongs to God.
Tomorrow, that day of large promises and poor performances that does not yet belong to us, but saved for the
star of hope that forever shines from tomorrow into the heart of day where we have no possessions, but in the
day of grace. It will be ours but yet still belongs to God. There is but one day that we can live, ‘Today.’ If our
minds and our hearts are right we can live richly and well.”
Well if you are the one with the hobby gone rogue, you will need to start off each new day with a prayer in your
heart of thanksgiving, and let each day end in grace. When you fully come to realize that you need assistance,
do not fear asking God for His help, for He will provide for any willing heart. God may not be as concerned about
getting you out of the trouble you are in, as much as He will use your situation to rebuild your character.
Remember, recovery is a process, not an event.
Your Creator counts every hair on your head and He will now be watching to see how you handle each situation,
giving you the courage to, and grace for. We all need courage to live and the grace to forgive each new day,
however, not from our own pocket because we all lack the required funds, but rather, to allow Providence to
guide the way.
Now just because you're concerned and nosy peoples check up on you to make sure that you are staying
compliant with your treatment plan, does not mean they do not trust you, but rather, they may not trust your
treatment plan. Therefore, do not take their concerns as an insult to your credibility. Take your past credibility
as your concern for yourself!
Stay accountable, your bags, pockets and your life must now be an open book. If you have anything to hide,
you are ready to relapse. Remember this; It is the secrets that we keep, that keep us sick! Therefore, No more
excuses, and No more hiding! Denial is Not a river in Egypt, it is a heart condition that will lead you back to the
gates of hell if you do not allow God to slowly arrest your adverse desires.
Stay away from slippery people, places and things.
There are some good quality recovery systems out there. I did my internship at one of them and I also worked at
a couple of others. God even allowed me to help open a center. Now one thing that I discovered is that cost
does not always have a variance on the quality of care. In fact, I have witnessed a few families and corporations
pay big bucks for people to learn how to live without their addiction, only to finally be freed at one of the lower
cost centers where I was allowed to work at. Again, it’s all about the hearts willingness to comply with the
process.
Now if you are the executive type who believes that you are above being housed in the same center with a guy
who was just paroled out of prison, please allow me to assure you that he may very well turn out to be your next
best friend! God does some really weird stuff in recovery centers. Parolees playing on the monkey bars with
princes is not all that unusual to see at the recovery centers that I was apart of.
Now be patent with yourself, as even Rome was not built in one day. It took God six full days to build it! Now that
I made that statement you must now ask yourself if there is anything that is really worth arguing about. Who
cares how long it took God to do what, or how He did it. Just know that He did what He did and how He felt like
doing whatever He felt like doing!
It just is not our business to know everything yet! Therefore, find ways not to argue with one another. It is just
not worth it. Do not allow pride to destroy you before you even get started. Ask yourself, “Would you rather be
right, or would you rather be content? Now stop arguing with babies because they mess in their pants, you are
not going to win!
It is time that you learn to become willing to change every aspect of your life. Hold back nothing. You must now
give up every cookie in the cookie jar! Leave no stone unturned! There are no magic wands, silver bullets or
correct words to say, but only a willingness to change the way you view yourself and the world around you.
May God bless you on your journey back home to Himself.
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